YIM or YAWN?

I'm pathetic, I'll be the first one to admit it. I do consider myself to be a little less pathetic than before, but pathetic nonetheless. Exhibit "A" of evidence is Yahoo Instant Messenger (or YIM for short). Every night when getting home I fire up the trusty laptop and go immediately to turn on my YIM. Now the reasoning behind this should be obvious... I'm waiting (o.k. hoping) for an instant message from someone.

Those messages used to come a lot more frequently. No, I don't mean the "hi cutie, cum visit my webcam" messages, although those do arrive frequently enough. As if the Viagra and penis enlargement spam emails weren't enough, now these scammers feel it imporant to instantly detach me of my money $3.99 a minute at a time.

But I digress. "Elsie" used to chat with me a few times a week on YIM. It was always after 10:00pm, which I surmise is when the kids were safely tucked into their beds. Sometimes just chatting about the events of the day, sometimes a little racier, I've always enjoyed them. At times they were quickies as one or the other had to get some sleep, but other times I'd look at the clock and it would be 2:00am when we signed off. We weren't (aren't) getting together as much as I wanted (want), but at least our chats kept me connected. Well, circumstances have changed... she's busier than ever and doesn't even seem to have time for this. Needless to say, it's frustrating and disheartening. At some point in the future there will be a blogpost for the ladies to tell me if I'm naive or optimistic.

Now why am I less pathetic than before? Well, in the past I'd wait and wait for that familiar "ping" to let me know she started a conversation. I'm not exaggerating when I say I would stare at the screen like a puppy dog waiting for a table scrap. Those sad eyes, waiting and waiting. Sometimes the "ping" would come and my tail (among other things) would start wagging. Sometimes it wouldn't, and I'd go to bed with the sad puppy face and start the next morning with a dour outlook. Now I still wait for the "ping" but without the drama. I wish she would shoehorn me into her spare time, but don't fret if she doesn't. It has taken a lot of strength and will power to change my attitude to "in her own time, I won't rush her." The change has helped to keep The Fog away for the time being. But right now, it's more YAWN (Yahoo Always Waiting, Nothing) than YIM over the world wide web.